Growing Up Asian in America Contest Winners

Asian Pacific American Heritage Month Celebrates Growing Up Asian in America Contest Winners

Katie Nguyen

Congratulations to the Growing Up Asian in America Contest Winners

The 25th Anniversary Lance Lew Grand Prize winner of the Growing Up Asian in America Contest is Katie Nguyen. Her winning essay is called, "Head Up: Mouth Open" (Find her essay below.)

In honor of Asian Pacific American Heritage month NBC and AACI are proud to announce the 25 winners of the 25th Anniversary Growing Up Asian in America contest.  These young people remind us why Asian American voices and perspectives are so important, especially now. 

As concerns of COVID-19 increases, anti-Asian sentiment is also on the rise, it is more important than even to stand in solidarity with one another, celebrate our heritage, and let our unique voices be heard in the community.

We are fortunate to share the work of the brightest artists in the Bay Area as they answer the question “Why Do I Count.” We hope the art and words of our youth will drown out the bigotry and remind us why we all deserve to be represented and respected. Click here to view all the 2020 winners or visit

Katie Nguyen's grand prize winning essay:

Head Up: Mouth Open 

Keep your head down. Do as you are told

As the child of Vietnamese refugees, I spent my adolescence trying to emulate the patriotism that my parents had. Go along with the white man's laws, they told me, for the white man saved us from poverty. They welcomed us with open arms when we first came here and gave us the privileges of U.S. soil. So, even if the white man forgets us... even if the white man shrinks us down to objects and leaves us to the dust, we must love this country like no other. 

That's simply a price we must pay for salvation

Keep your head down. Do as you are told. 

I stare down at my feet, clenching my fists. The man's no younger than thirty. I bite my lip, mustering a shaky smile onto my lips. He tells me that I am beautiful. Exotic. He says he likes Asian women because they are quiet. I am not yet a woman, a lonely child at the mere age of fourteen. Anger surges through me as he continues whistling his catcalls, oblivious to the discomfort that plagues my body. I want to tell him that I am not quiet. I am undeniably loud, a force to be reckoned with. There will be a day where the world will know my name. 

But for now, I just cross the sidewalk quickly when the light pops up. I hear him driving away, left with the harmful stereotypes and labels that I couldn't and didn't change. 

Keep your head down. Do as you are told. 

No. I will not. I am done with proving my allegiance to this country. I am done with having to quantify the benefits of Asian American representation in government. I am done with being silent, of keeping my head down and doing as I am told. 

Let it be known. Let it be heard. I am an American citizen. I am protected under the same constitution and Bill of Rights like everyone else. I pay homage to America's acceptance of my parents by freely executing the freedoms given to me at birth. My right to freedom of speech allows me to speak out against harmful stereotypes and blatant racism fostered by past American policies and propaganda. It doesn't make me any less of a person. It does not make me ignorant of the privileges my parents did not have back in Vietnam. 

Thus, is it egregious to ask for Asian American representation in government? Like everyone else, Asian Americans are citizens whose interest should be kept in mind as politicians enact legislation that significantly impacts us. In a society where significant portions of Asian minority groups are underrepresented, such as South East Asians, it's crucial to make sure that we are heard. 

Even if it's uncomfortable. 

Even if it goes against societal expectations. 

Even if it's safer to stay silent. 

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